'cause inside you're ugly
6:06 PM |

Listening to: Billy Liar by The Decemberists.
Feeling: disappointed.


Eisley's latest album is finally out. But I can't seem to find it anywhere. Maybe I haven't been looking hard enough. Grrr. Must. Get. It.

I just found out something really awful last night. The things people do, really. It's bad enough that you have changed for the worst and now you're making people boycott the person who has always been there for you since day one? That's really low. It's upsetting to see how things turned out to be. Do we even know you? Lies, lies, lies. That's what we've been getting from you these days. We're not stupid. Well, maybe I am. Because I still do not wanna believe all these. I still think deep down inside, you're a nice person. I'm still defending you. I want to. I wanna talk to you about it. I really do. But I can't. Because things will turn ugly since I'm not exactly involved. Yet, I can't pretend that nothing has happened. If you only knew that it's killing her inside. Maybe some time soon, you'll find out. And you'll regret what an ugly person you have turned into and all the shit that you have done. Then, things will go back to normal like how they were when.

You are very naive, Jasmine.

I hate to be the sensitive one all the time. Whenever stuff like these happened, I'm always the one that is badly affected. I lied when I said I did not care. Time and time again, I keep telling myself to not be arsed by all of it, to not give in when I know it's not my fault. Why do I always have to be the one that has to patch things up when people are so unappreciative? No, it's not because I'm a good person. I'm not even a good person to begin with. It's because I care.


"Oh oh oh you lie,
Tell me something more
than what you've tried to hide.
If you can't find yourself,
then how can I expect to find you?
Innocence gone.
If you can't hold yourself together,
Why should I hold you now?
"

xoxo

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